Monday, January 12, 2009

Reading About Gaza

This morning I read a comment someone made on facebook about ending the seize of Gaza and contacting the incoming U.S. Administration to halt it. This hit a sore spot with me. Who are we in the United States to oppose it? Who are we to support it? Logging in later tonight I found an utterly offensive picture (which is probably a fake) in an effort to persuade Americans to choose one side or the other. I firmly believe in Israel's right to defend itself from Hamas, but there isn't enough information on the subect, unbiased information that is, to make any sound judgment. But still my conviction remains, and I must stand as one with Israel.

Going into this reading, my question was "Why do I feel so strongly about Israel's right to defend itself?" As the meditation-reading progressed, the outcome changed, as did the focus or question in intent.

I drew the 7 of Swords.

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Obvious at first are the two swords that are left behind. I see this as the two camps over here in the U.S., one which supports, or in the very least attempts to understand, what Israel is doing, and the other camp that does not nor cares to. It occurs to me that those who oppose this offensive would be opposed to any violence against any group of people, no matter what. Those who feel a kinship with the Israeli civilians, those who agree that Hamas firing rockets for seven (the seven again) years into Southern Israel, will feel the exact opposite. There are the informed and the uninformed, in other words. One might say that there are the franchised and disenfanchised.

Two swords are also indicative of two sides to the truth---"ours" and "theirs." Often times the "theirs" is seen as propaganda and vice versa; each side thinks they are in the right. This is the nature of war, is it not?

Bottom line with this reading is that there isn't anything any of us can do with this conflict except wait it out. (This is the point at which my mind begins to change.) Also I do not feel obligated to support a government on either side that refuses to make concessions to the other. Like it or not, swearing to destroy the Jew and the nation of Israel or not, Hamas is the government that the Palestinians chose to represent them. 

The five swords, ruled by Saturn the Planet of limitations, reminds me that I need to divorce myself mentally and spiritually from what Israel is doing as a secular society. This is the only way I can feel solidarity with the Klal Israel and (the citizens of worldwide Jewry) while at the same time distancing myself from politics. (I have found this to be true here in the United States when it comes to the culture wars. And, boy, do my problems seem trivial now!)

The two swords that are on their own, which I as the character in the card am studying, reminds me once again that I should not fall into the trap of oppositional politics. This inevitably is no good for my health. My time is best spent affecting change in the wider world through acts of loving kindness (g’milut chasadim) instead of concerning myself with matters of government. I need to look at this crisis not in bitterness but as a galvanizing force in my life. What do I really need to support? A war on the other side of the world which will clearly be won by the mightier military? Should I rejoice in this? No. My energies are best spent elsewhere. I will take my swords and go play in another sandbox, thank you very much.

The moon in this card is also a reminder that this too shall pass, as the phases of the moon, not that I am belittling the plight or pain of others in Gaza and in Southern Israel because I am not. This is simply an effective way of coping, of reconciling the connection I have with Jews as a people while at the same time distancing myself from their civic government.

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Saturday, January 10, 2009

Reading On "What to Focus On"―Outcome Far in the Future

I asked the deck "What do you have to show me and in what time frame?" Interestingly enough, after picking up the deck, the question morphed into, "What do I have to tell you (and in what time frame)?" in my mind's eye. It was definitely as if there was an external influence there. This doesn't happen often.

Thereby the focus of the deck immediately shifted into the first person singular. It was truly as if this deck were speaking to me!

Not surprisingly then, the top card was
2 of Swords (again!) and the bottom card was V Hierophant.

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The 2 of Swords came up in my reading from last week. This suggests that this is going to be far more of a "meditation" deck than a "readings for others" deck. The 2 of Swords falls in the realm of Yesod (Hebrew for Foundation), as it is a "long" suit and aligns opposite upon the Tree of Life schematic. The very premise for this deck and what I will glean from it in the next few months, is preparation for the period of time¹ that the deck itself intimated.

The XX Judgement card also comes into clearer focus because of the scrutiny I must undergo in order to make the conversion official. This is not scrutiny into my personal life; I am not converting into the Orthodox; but into my spiritual development and my intention to bring about personal change (tikkune) and societal change (tikkun olam).

For this reading, V Heirophant echoes the sentiment of the 2 of Swords (NB the crossed keys at the owl's feet) and reminds me of the bimah from which I will be officiating my first Haftorah portion², a second reason of the importance of the dates (explanantion footnoted) given by the tarot.

The wise owl did not get to where he is by being idle and not studying. This period of time between now and then is only 7 months. This is a very short period of time in terms of preparation. 

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¹The two time cards surrounding my Significator was the 2 of Wands and 8 of Chalices, meaning "between the 13th week after Spring equinox and 7th week after Summer solstice." This is an eight-week period from mid-August to mid-October.

²i.e. my adult Bar Mitzvah. 

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