Saturday, April 18, 2009

How Did the Interview Really Go?

Okay, so I am insecure. I want to know how the interview for the job I really want went! I used a horseshoe spread from from Aeclectic Tarot for this reading:

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1. The past XI Justice
2. The present XXI The World
3. Hidden influences Queen of Wands
4. Obstacles to overcome 5 of Swords
5. Attitudes of other people III The Empress
6. What I should do 8 of Pentacles
7. The outcome 10 of Wands

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XI Justice is often about contracts and agreements. In the past, I have worked for the same employer for three years and (finally) awarded a services contract, meaning that I am "guaranteed" employment in the county. (NB: the quotation marks because there may not be enough jobs to go around!) This card has come up multiple times in Lenormand readings as The Ring, by the way. This is a good base for the reading, as the outcome (not of the reading but in real life) hinges on this issue, contract liability, as well as other issues.

XXI The World in the present is me, "top of my game." The interviewer told me that so far I was the most viable candidate and the only one, so far, qualified specifically for the job. In other words, it seems that the position is almost tailor-made for me. He couldn't tell me whether or not he would hire me for the position because there were other people he had to interview first as per guidelines handed down to him (again, a contract issue), but he hinted around that I would be the top choice. This card certainly doesn't refute what he told me.

Queen of Wands is the hidden influences position is almost certainly a person or persons. Three of his oldtime friends (and church members) and fellow workers happen to be with me at my current assignment. They are more or less my personal references. This is a strong card, as in my "Ace in the Hole," to have coming into the interview. These are stronger influences on his decision than I had supposed going into it.

5 of Swords are the obstacles to overcome. As this is Venus in Aquarius, eliminating my own selfish desires desires in this matter is paramount to success. It is funny how tarot sometimes is so direct, as if saying, "Don't worry about it, you fool! You are going to get the job or else it will all work out!" There is also the aspect of patience here, of which I have little in this matter. And the idea that I will probably be offered my current position again as others start to transfer from the job center to go other places, to retire, to relocate to other parts of the country. I am going to be *not* lazy and take the plunge, moving all my crap outta from where it is now to a new cost center? It is a pain in the butt, and something I will have to almost force myself to do. I look at this card as if it were me, reluctantly collecting my things and looking back as if to say, "Well, maybe I should stay..."

III The Empress is the "you're at home" card. I was told at the interview that I would "fit right in" at this school. It is very, very rural and country, and I am not comfortable in the higher echelon, fon-fon schools, at it were. [I interviewed at one of these types yesterday and couldn't stand it, actually; some people take themselves way to seriously!] This attitude expressed towards me yesterday, therefore sincere. This was one of the most burning questions I had, others sincerity. It is good to see this card here because it makes me feel that the sentiment expressed was real and not manufactured political bullshit.

8 of Pentacles tells me that I should remain vigilant. I was told to call at a definite time on Tuesday to learn whether or not I get the job. I was even given the interviewer's direct line into his office (how many Principals are going to do that? lol). I was told also not to accept the first job offered, if it was, because he was going be ethical and do the right thing and wait, unlike others in the county, he insinuated, until the entire field of candidates was cleared (a plus in my book!). As Sun in Virgo, it is the "do the right thing" card. Of course it reflects The Strength card in this deck, as well. And since Pentacles or the Working suit, also good to see here...

10 of Wands is normally seen as a negative card, but this is a great example of how a supposed negative card can be one of the *best* cards in a throw, depending on position! It is a fin de siècle
card, if you will. It has been a long and arduous journey, navigating the politics and professional wranglings over the last three years for this county. And although this new job will be a whole lot of work, perhaps a burden even, it is a welcome break to what I have been teaching. It is Saturn in Sagittarius is a limitation in the upper intellect and Ruler of the House of Higher Education. My work may be cut out for me because of the, shall we say intellectual, limitations of the population at this particular school. It is no surprise to see this card here, then.


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Sunday, April 12, 2009

What If I Change Careers?

I have to say that the last month of being on this rollercoaster wide has got me thinking whether this is my cue to change careers voluntarily or not. Should I think about going back to school for respiratory therapy, paramedic, fire safety or some other training? I actually did two throws. One was a Four Square on what if "I Stay;" the other, what if "I leave." I will only discuss the second one:

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1. What is known. The Chariot. It would be a struggle for me, that's for sure. There are financial issues that would be difficult to overcome. But that being said I think I would be able to overcome these issues with the help of my partner and perhaps my father (if I were to go back to school or some other training). The Chariot is "my card," meaning that it is the sign Cancer. I could more likely be myself in another profession. It is likely that there is a better fit for me than what I am doing currently. This is largely for health reasons. My current job prevents me from getting in the shape that I would like to see myself in because of the work hours, work load, and energy required to do the job. I am mostly unhappy with the lifestyle I feel I am forced to lead in my current job situation. It involved a lot of sedentary work and it isn't as physical as I would like or need to have at the moment.

2. What is unknown. 9 of Chalices. I have been studying the dacanates system over the last week and notice that this is Jupiter in Pisces. (This becomes important later in the reading.) The 9 here is the end of a cycle. It is possible that I am ready to switch careers, but I have to take that leap of faith and actually leave teaching. If I take a voluntarily leave of absence (can take up to a school year), I would be ineligible for unemployment. But I have to consider this as the "wish come true" card. Is my dream job right around the corner? Probably. I cannot lose sight of the fact that my current was supposed to be a temporary job till I found a comfortable fit. What happened?

3.What I should do. Ace of Pentacles. This one seems self-explanatory! Start new. Begin again. It could be that I need to branch out now before I get stuck in one profession. After too long, I will be unhirable in any other besides teaching. Is this the place that I want to be? Tarot often provides more questions than answers.

4. What I shouldn't do. 8 of Swords. This is Jupiter in Gemini. I shouldn't close myself off to other ideas. In comparison to the "What is unknown" card, it is quite the opposite but compliments it well by virtue of the positional meanings---what I don't know, on the one hand, and what I shouldn't be doing, on the other. The expansive quality of Jupiter indicates a time of movement, clarity and purpose. The Chalices card is outward and positive and the Swords card is inward and negative. Getting too caught up in thinking about the situation will certainly lead to me spinning my wheels and not being able to make a decision.

What this reading boils down to is that there is fear in the unknown, yes, but if I take that leap of faith, then there could be a wish fulfilled there somewhere. The uncertainty is there, and since there are no guarantees in life, will always be there. So why not make the move? Am I that insecure? Lazy? Is my inability to branch out or my comfortability in my current job situation preventing me keeping a realistic eye on the future?

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